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Mysticism may be dualistic, maintaining a distinction between the self and the divine, or may be nondualistic.

Important to note, since 2005 when I started having mystical experiences, I was still a fulltime student, worked as a stage manager and kept my commitment to friends and family. The experiences I was having always brought me to a place that something else occupied, meaning I came in contact with "something" else. What it was, I am going to say for sure was Christ, the Holy Sprit, me talking with God. (Which btw, is demanded for anyone who wants to go into ministry, one must be able to converse with the Holy Spirit... and I have seen hundreds of people do so since birth.) Perhaps the people around me all became tuned in, perhaps God took me in and conversed with me through them, perhaps it was so miraculous that to define it's mystery is improbably, but I was speaking to… I am positive, 100%, over 50 students a day at that campus, them all learning my name--- Who i was, what i was doing, why I was doing it. I always wanted fame and glory, but I never thought I would get such being a saintly follower of Christ... I mean I became a famous saint then... made known to many, everyday, because of my qualities and enlightenment, and personality, looks, etc.... and since I also saw and "lived alongside the other students at PSU who experienced what I was experiencing…" I know it was not something normal, normal for me or them at the school. It seems most likely to me, that the other 60,000 students at PSU experienced it with me, and in all honesty I had my close friends attest to what I was experiencing, the truth was… I suddenly seemed to become one with God at PSU, a holy, hot saint and I was being worshiped, praised, adored, followed by men and women, professed adoration to and otherwise having Godly attributes. I, again, have friends, fellow students at PSU at that time, who can attest to this…

I also through working daily with Christ have so many people who can attest that they… through some other sense than hearing my voice, can HEAR MY VOICE and understand that I, in my everyday nature, am… godly. If I take myself way back, through the months, to the beginning, and say with all the honesty that I have, true gifts from God--- true blessings--- and that they indeed communicated to me through the HOLY SPIRIT and PSYCHIC WAYS… that in 2008, here on Earth, I and the other people of Florida, esp. Orlando, because of me experienced "during this time, the planet and its inhabitants may undergo a positive physical or spiritual transformation, and that 2012 may mark the beginning of a new era" which included the meeting of me, via again the HOLY SPIRIT, Psychic means and godly ways, if during this time I honestly can attest to other's accounts (as there would be many humans accounts of what had happened) and mark my word what happened to me was for real, those experiences which lead to my transformation and then further travel.

Spiritually, mentally, and physically I transformed during both periods, in succession I made my mark as I traveled, experiencing a variety of states and communions~ the thing which I daily communed with was not seen but heard from 2008 onward into Seoul, where again I swear the people of Seoul were a conscious part of my experience (s), the nature of my state being inhuman and proudly conversed by all who I came in contact with, including those I worked with--- Again by then I had proof, and have proof that those I live with, those I daily come in contact with, do indeed experience this holy, supernatural state in which I am the focus and by my nature and by the nature of what surrounds me, and proven to be godly… of a part of God. By all of this, my past here has simply proven to all who remember me, have come in contact with me, or are in the environment that I live; that I am indeed a part of God… One with God, or living permanently on Earth as a nondualistic part of Jesus Christ. Differing religious traditions have described this fundamental mystical experience in different ways:
Union with God (Theosis in Catholic Christianity)
Now, as mysticism is the CONSCIOUS AWARENESS OF GOD OR OF THE ULTIMATE REALITY!!!! Theosis is "In Christian theology, particularly in Catholicism, Eastern Orthodoxy, and Oriental Orthodoxy theology, theosis (written also: theiosis, theopoiesis, theōsis; Greek: Θέωσις, meaning divinization, deification, or making divine) is the process of transformation of a believer who is putting into practice the spiritual teachings of Jesus Christ and His gospel. In particular, theosis refers to the attainment of likeness to or union with God, that is the final stage of this process of transformation and is as such the goal of the spiritual life. Theosis is the third of three stages; the first being purification (katharsis) and the second illumination (theoria). By means of purification a person comes to illumination and then sainthood. Sainthood is the participation of the person in the life of God. According to this doctrine, the holy life of God, given in Jesus Christ to the believer through the Holy Spirit, is expressed through the three stages of theosis, beginning in the struggles of this life, which increases in the experience of the believer through the knowledge of God, and is later consummated in the resurrection of the believer, when the power of sin and death, having been fully overcome by the atonement of Jesus, will lose hold over the believer forever."


By my personal experience, I was marked at PSU as a human who had direct revelation and experience with the holy, the supernatural, the spiritual including daily contact with the doctrine of Christ; which I would meditate on and put to use as a person, and psychically would digest, etc which lead to me teaching other person by means which I have come to know (remember I mentioned before that much of my day in 2005, 2008 & 2009 was spent teaching.) I was founded to be blessed by being godly: (Definition 1: Having great reverence for God; pious) since birth, and then from the age of 24 having the experience of
turning into GOD: "1
capitalized: the supreme or ultimate reality: as a
: the Being perfect in power, wisdom, and goodness who is worshipped as creator and ruler of the universe b
Christian Science: the incorporeal divine Principle ruling over all as eternal Spirit : infinite Mind."
Since I have stated this before, the definition of God, simplified beyond any means necessary, but for the means of my purpose; the definition can be used to express my reality, or what in fact has power or control over my reality, and thus my experiences here on Earth are an awakening to Christ, God, the creator of all that exists. This is daily proven to me 1) By my communion with something living, at times all knowing or all encompassing 2) By my ability to change my reality, control those around me, including people, animals, things, time, space, sounds, etc.

 I do not doubt that what I went through at PSU and in Orlando, was a purification of my soul/mind/body. In fact, to write about my personal experience in detail, I can say that nothing entered my mind, body and ultimately soul that was not "white", "sinless", honest, good, and if indeed I was being watched constantly by other humans and/or God, nothing went to me without going through either of them… I was purified so much that for at least 1 month I did not have to eat, drink or have the human function of going to the bathroom! (I don't think I mentioned this before, but my body (as I was psychically told by God—see previous post 'Conversations with God') was no longer simply just human in nature and thus did not have the human functions given to mortals after the sin of Adam and Eve. I was placed, as I was told, back into heaven and my body thus was cleansed from the infraction placed upon mortal men and women since the beginning of time, aging, dying and human physical need; like eating, drinking, sleeping, the bathroom, etc. I honestly swear that for 1 month, and during much of this time I was superimposed into another state, almost as if I wasn't on Earth but in another realm. I did function as a normal human, even went out shopping in Orlando, etc (as in doing normal, city girl things) but my mind, body, and soul was entranced with God and his Holy Spirited entered me and made it so I was cleansed from sin and thus physical mortal needs. After experiencing, what I would call a purification process via the Holy Spirit and God, I then went into another trancelike state (though again I was a normal women on the Earth and even at this time working fulltime) which brought me the power of a mind that educated me beyond anything I had ever known before, in ways I never knew one could be educated. By this I mean I was taught by something, in a variety of ways, but all supernaturally. I was learning by some holy ghost, who in all seriousness, was teaching me based on my thoughts, perceptions, feelings, moods, aka human mind and state. I had many questions, and it was during this time I truly feel (later now that I am more aware and with more knowledge I am positive) that I was communicating with Christ/God/supernatural beings. Of course my mind went everywhere, sometime I would "think" (even would be!) I was speaking to God, sometimes to Christ, sometimes to angels, sometimes to Ghosts, and of course I KNEW I WAS ALSO SPEAKING TO PEOPLE, THE PEOPLE OF ORLANDO AND BEYOND.

2008-2009, had me experience both purification which lead to my state of nonhuman bodily function and the stage of illumination which taught me that I could control space and time, time travel, speak to every human on the earth, talk to God, control the reality of the Earth, be filled with the Holy Spirit and experience many of the gifts this wonderful being brings (see previous post about) and much more.  

(All this has come to pass what which the prophets have said would pass at the 2nd coming of Christ!!!!)


It was by this being which was with me 24/7, and perhaps my communion with beings on Earth that I learned all I could do. IN ALL HONESTY, EVERYTHING I HAVE DONE SINCE THEN I WAS TOLD I COULD DO PRIOR, WHILE I WAS LIVING IN ORLANDO, FLORIDA. I WAS TOLD BY AN UNSEEN BEING, and then again by people in Orlando who would always approach me (for often they said I had something no other human they saw had, something "about me"... or they would just start talking about me, as my fame grew, so did the knowing of me.)

 I have spent over 900 days contemplating what I have experienced, what others have experienced, the information and knowledge of this world and what I have been told. I am not ready at the age of 28 to digress upon all my experienced, and the reality of this truth. I am no wear near to be trained to be a person who directly encompasses a reality in which my being, my whole person, me—everything I am—in transcended into Christ and also the 2000 century Earth. If a human being walked this Earth which as much power as me, I would certainly like to meet him or her, because as of yet I have not found one. This said I am also aware of my being, if I could take it out of the reality it is in, as for now I cannot~ but this person I am sitting in that is a young, 28 year olf American women who should by all means be aware of her flaws and incapability's. We talk about our incapability's here on this Earth, how humans are incapable of being godly, how they are incapable of mentally communicating with others via telepathy or something like it, how they are without the ability to control their environment, and how, as a human, they are incapable of communicating with Christ. I swear on my (what to swear by) that I am, despite my consciousness wanting to say otherwise at times (the logic, rational ego of mine denies, oh how it denies), capable of doing all 4. What does a women do in this case? She slowly, in all rationality, studies, and then even more slowly starts to speak about it…

 My transformation into Christ, into God, into what I have become has not left me alone (in fact it is the opposite; I quoted in a previous blog a portion of text from "The Tremendous Lover" which stated God's desire for mankind. Blessing that included fame, fortune, heath, richness, etc.) Yet, my ability to communicate to God and maybe even humans all day long, has left me with a vacant space that needs to be filled with the saints of today, those who vocationally follow Christ and with impending desire, understand my impression on them and this Earth, enough to explain (via their mouths) what I can do, have done, am doing…
St. Athanasius of Alexandria wrote, "God became man so that man might become god." [the second god is always lowercase]

 I do not in any way believe that my experience has left me inhuman. I do not deny my rational, logical self. In fact, despite my often dreamlike reality, I turn to self and say, "I am not him, the Christ who by x, y, z came to save the world. Even if, in my being I can do x, in my mind I hear y, and by my reality I see z… my person is simply being bought, my persona is growing in Christ, and I avow that as a Christian I came to find God."

 

St. Maximus the Confessor wrote, "A sure warrant for looking forward with hope to deification of human nature is provided by the incarnation of God, which makes man god to the same degree as God himself became man.... Let us become the image of the one whole God, bearing nothing earthly in ourselves, so that we may consort with God and become gods, receiving from God our existence as gods. For it is clear that He who became man without sin (cf. Heb. 4:15) will divinize human nature without changing it into the divine nature, and will raise it up for his own sake to the same degree as He lowered himself for man's sake. This is what St Paul teaches mystically when he says, '...that in the ages to come he might display the overflowing richness of His grace' (Eph. 2:7)."(page 178 PHILOKALIA Volume II)

 

I always have the uncanny ability to find what I seek. I seek to know what I am, what I have become, why I have experienced life on this Earth in the way I have, and why my reality encompasses those who see me and my ability as godlike.

 

"For many fathers, theosis goes beyond simply restoring people to their state before the Fall of Adam and Eve, teaching that because Christ united the human and divine natures in Jesus's person, it is now possible for someone to experience closer fellowship with God than Adam and Eve initially experienced in the Garden of Eden, and that people can become more like God than Adam and Eve were at that time."

I swear I did not know the above paragraph until after I wrote everything above it. Yet, what did I mention above, that my state in 2008 while I was living in Orlando, Florida was that of a human without any human function. I had the power even then to control nature, men, women, animals, the moving of all the is in my environment, the mental states or reality of the people in my environment, the ability to know the future, and then have it proven seconds later, the ability to know the truths from 1,000 years ago and in fact learn psychically ~ all of which I did in a state where I felt NO PAIN, NO HUNGER, NO THIRST, NO DESIRE TO RELEASE WASTE. I WAS IN A STATE OF ECSTACY, A STATE WHERE I COULD CONTROL NOT ONLY MY REALITY, AKA THE EARTH, BUT MY BODY. I COULD RAISE MY HEARTBEAT WHENEVER I DESIRED, I COULD BREATHE IN WATER, IN COULD PUT A FLAME TO MY HAND AND FEEL NOTHING BUT COLD. I COULD EVEN STOP MY BREATHE FOR LONGER THAN HUMANILY NORMAL. Experiencing this was so dreamlike, so miraculous in its effect, that my mind put it away, stored it, so that not many knew…. Except now I must be able to write about it, before I can speak about it to people.

"Author and mystic, Evelyn Underhill outlines the universal mystic way, the actual process by which the mystic arrives at union with the absolute. She identifies five stages of this process."

"Christian mysticism is the pursuit of communion with, identity with, or conscious awareness of the Christian God through direct experience, intuition, instinct or insight. Christian mysticism usually centers on a practice or practices intended to nurture those experiences or awareness, such as deep prayer involving the person of Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghosts. This approach and lifestyle is distinguished from other forms of Christian practice by its aim of achieving unity with the divine. In the words of Oswald Chambers, "We receive His blessings and know His Word, but do we know Him?"

 

My direct experience of course will allow me to correlate the truth of what both mysticism is, and what it is like to be a mystic. I have formed my own opinion of what I am based on my experiences; no new knowledge curtailed my experiences or assisted in my definition of myself. Before I knew what mysticism was, or how it was in the many ways defined, I was experiencing a communion with God, a divine connection and a reality that offered me certain close placement with godly abilities.

 

Ben-Ami, in the first chapter, states "The usual criterion for the mystic state is the certainty that one is undergoing the direct, previously veiled touch of reality in itself; and that this reality more nearly resembles our internal experience than our simply external environment." How more wrong could he be! Way before I knew any definition or academic term for what I was experiencing, I knew that the reality of Earth was indeed tied into and a direct influence of my reality. I was suddenly, because of my first mystic experience, sensing the world and my environment much closer than I ever had done before, in case I missed something, there was some clue or event that would explain what reality I was in…

Diary entry 2005, "I am watching them more. I now take time to sit, relaxed and free, upon the grass nole of the campus main lawn. I often believe I will go there to meditate, but find myself spending an equal amount of time watching, closely monitoring the people around to see what I have never seen before, to notice how they look at me, how they move, how they seem to react to my thoughts, or even come out and say something to me… I watch so closely, even when the other party does not seem to see me, notice me; I have never stared at people Like I do now… hoping to not be noticed, but to notice, all my senses heightened… my attention focus on the smallest sound, the tiniest movement.

 

My focus on my reality, on the earth and those in my environment, in fact was a notable growth in my character. Before what I took in, the environment I was in and what was happening in it, happened to be of a much less degree than what it grew to; directly responsible was my mystic self as well as my logical, rational, reasoning self that desired above all else the answers, the truth. I was 24 in 2005, as I aged I also grew in character, changing certain aspects of my personality to adapt to my environment in the most promising of ways. Adaptation is a necessity, innate in man and beast. My character in 2008 succumbed to my curiosity, soon enough I was not only paying attention to my interactions but those interactions had by anything in my environment. Any conversation, any physical contact, my focus stayed upon… my focus then turned to what I heard, not just from people but in all of my environment be it city noise, background noise, the radio, TV, etc. After focusing more intently on human interactions, and sounds in my environment, I went to what I saw. I noticed the smallest movements, the largest movements… before I would not notice the plane above… within 3 years, my new character I saw it with a exact precision, noticing exact when it entered my environment, what sounds I hear the moment before, during and after it came into my sight, what other movements were happening, and even what I was thinking at the time. I love to note that my power of intention was newly focused on the practice of gaining external information.

 

"Self-realization means that we have been consciously connected with our source of being. Once we have made this connection, then nothing can go wrong…" by the Power of Intention as seen on public TV.

 

The Power of Intention, preface is that "You're holding in your hands evidence that anything we can conceive of in our minds—while staying in harmony with the universal all-creating Source—can and must come to pass."

 

That statement, a statement of fact and truth that I dearly attest to, impacts me, my reality, my use of myself as a mystic, and the reality of the term and it's affect in our world, beyond what any other description of mysticism can attest to. I hold my truth, and the truth of certain specific definitions of mysticism to be of a greater universal reality; Yet, if there is any answer to what I have done I have realized myself, I have understood the deepest portion of my human desire, and enabled my being, my "self" to grasp as what I so want. I have since then found in myself, a true power, a portion of this power is explained and digressed in 'Power of Intention', it is exactly the same true power that we hear about from mainstream society.

 

"Besides the river stands the holy tree of life. There doth my father dwell, and my home is in him. The heavenly father and I are one."

 

It is through the power of intent that our reality lies here and now. By our judgments, by our protocol, our perceptions we create ourselves. By our intent we create certain outcomes in our reality, the variables that play out to be our day, and the moments with which we live. Intent by definition means: a determination to act in a certain way, by presupposing the outcome of our actions, by realizing in our minds what reality we will have based on the actualization of our actions, we ultimately live in….

 

"If you're one of those people with a never-give-up attitude combined with an internal picture that propels you toward fulfilling your dreams, you fit this description of someone with intention." Power of Intention

 

"We have thus the power of actualizing our desire simply by the use of our mind…"

In both quotes, and the many more I have found ~ which society bases its beliefs upon, we come to the conclusion that by the power of the mind, one's individual mind, one's reality is made. Similar to this, by the power of the mystic's soul, body, and mind (which includes his/her individual thoughts and intents) he/she experiences a reality that is made up of God and in a few cases, certain powers had by those who were/are blessed by him. The mystic experiences a direct connection with God, which has been both human intent and experience since the beginning of recorded history. My intent to be first spiritually perfect (as I mentioned in depth in a previous blog, alongside my intent to have the perfect mind and body), and the subsequent intents, has lead me to this state, this existence, this path. In further writings I will divulge into separate intents of mine, including my intent to gain more awareness of my environment, and how these "intents" subsequently affected my character, my days, and those in this world.

 

 

 

 

More information on me, my experiences!!!

What have I been doing? I can’t believe I am just realizing this, what after 2 years, more even, at least 30 months after it started, after it turned on. After the miracle happened. I am a miracle. I am in the middle of a constant miracle. This is no joke, nor am I lying. I couldn’t see before, I didn’t have the knowledge; I was like a babe in a room, seeing and hearing and sensing it, but not knowing what it was or how to explain it. I think I know how to explain it. Explain what I have been experiencing since 2005. I did it, I followed the strands, I did the treasure hunt, followed the maps… and of course with blessing, I am here, now… ready to tell. Ready to explain. My mind wanders, my focus is lost and my brain decides to play… to learn and grow playfully rather than searching for and knowing the truth of what has happened, is happening…. But, I am ready now. I am ready to explain to myself and the reader what it all was, what I have experienced and am experiencing. I am ready…

The word “psychic” comes from the Greek word psyche, “spirit” or “soul”. In Greek mythology, the soul is personified by Psyche, a girl who love one of the gods and suffered through many trials because of it. Through her suffering, she became a great soul (or soulful). YOU ARE like this girl, I am psychic. YOU ARE A HUMAN WITH VERY POWERFUL ABILITY. THIS IS DIFFERENT THAN the norm of humans in society. THIS IS MORE apparently blesssed, AND WHILE EACH PERSONS EXPERIENCE MAY BE DIFFERENT, WHEN IT COMES TO human CONTACT & ME, WE ALL JOIN TOGETHER NOW TO BE with me, to be seen with me, to know me, to be a part of my life, to be invited to the parties, to go out with the people I do, to be invited into the talk, to fame, to be known beside me... al this an so much more I am experiencing, have these past 2 years!!!
I have been chosen, really chosen!!! I have been told both by Christians and by other types, that I am 1 in a billion. Now each soul has it's own map, it's own destiny... The souls map IS BASED OFF OChrist's plan and the indiciduals mind, strength, drive, etc. The thing is, I have so much drive and stregnth, so much gusto as I like to call it... that nothing comes in my way. I will drive through walls and up mountains to work for my desires, for my GOD!

Psychic traditions, gifts, abilities have existed since the beginning of recorded history and were present in all cultures around the globe. In the ancient Middle East, the psychic powers of the prophets were noted, as described in the Old Testament. In the New Testament, psychic gifts, given often by the Holy Spirit, were very prominent.
Now, even those abilities of Jesus are discussed and connected to terms such as sutras (I wrote about them in a previous blog) or psychic terminology…
Your mind moves through time, the past, present and future. Everything that you have experienced is deposited in the memory bank of your unconscious mind. What YOU have experienced has been such a variety of events… that it’s hard for me to write them down and make sense of them all. When it comes to my health, I have been very healthy. In fact in perfect shape, with beyond normal ability to comfort my body, aka THIS INCLUDES a bit of ability to psychically heal myself. NOW YOU ARE PSYCHICS WE ARE ALL HUMAN WITH VERY POWERFUL PSYCHIC ABILITY.

 I DO HAVE THE ABILITY TO PSYCHICALLY heal, I can explain in greater detail later.
I mean I never have studied this, but through God's blessings (he always wants us to produce good fruit!) I am LEARNING!!!! JUST AS YOU CAN…

REMEMBER in it all I have felt this… this perfection beyond normal, beyond the normal mind. What I want to know is what. What did I experience and then how, How did I experience it? What was it, what caused it? I know, I have the answer for most of what I experience… This place for me is Heaven… for what is happening to me, around me is…

The gift of Clear Hearing:
Clairaudience literally means “clear hearing” and in psychic terms it is the ability to hear voices, sounds, or music that doesn’t exist on the “normal” place. These sounds may exist on a different plane; they may be heard as spirit guides, angels, deceased relatives or other spirits… Man has been guided by his internal voice since the beginning of time. The bible makes reference to the Voice of God speaking to the prophets. Besides voices, certain sounds may provide you with psychic insights. Some people hear ringing; some hear music, some voices, some animals, some machine sounds, sounds of nature, etc. Besides hearing sounds from other planes, those with clairaudience can also hear sounds from this plane, real sounds but yet sounds that most humans cannot hear yet… just like a dog can hear sounds way before a human can. For example, you may be able to hear music performed from a different time period if you are in the place where it was played before, or you may be able to hear a male’s voice speaking from far off… but saying something that is important for you to know. You may be able to hear spirits who existed around the area where you hear them, or you may be able to hear a car stop up ahead on the road, a car that is cars ahead of you… Some clairvoyants can hear sounds of another time period. The sound may be one left that left an impression on the location or on an object. It is also possible to hear the sounds of future events.


I also have clairvoyance. YOU HAVE A SENSE LIKE CLAIRVOYANCE....

I HAVE THE ABILITY TO SEE THE UNSEEN AND I KNOW SOME HAVE THE ABILITY TO SEE WHAT I SEE, ALMOST LIKE A MIDDLE MAN BETWEEN ME AND WHAT I SEE. FOR EXAMPLE THE SEEN IS THE WHITE LIGHT (THE WHITE LIGHT REPRESENTS ANYTHING GOOD). I SEE IT THOUGH IT IS NOT THERE, AND THE OTHER PERSONS (ANYONE IN MY ENVIRONMENT) SENSES IT IS THERE.
The Sense of Sight:
Clairvoyance literally means “clear seeing”. A psychic who is clairvoyant is able to see what is “unseen” by common man/women either because it is a part of his/her own, personal reality and no one else’s OR it is actually a part of this reality, but manifests only in front of the clairvoyant. Of course, at times what he/she sees is seen by others, the case of a group Angel sighting or Holy Spirit sighting (like a prophet sees).

There are several different types of clairvoyance (and by several I mean hundreds… every person blessed with this gift, sees different things… at different levels. Some include the ability to see through objects, over long distances, into the past (an ability known as retrocognition), or into the future (precognition). Clairvoyance may involve being able to see the health conditions of people and/or animals, having psychic dreams, visualizing other worlds and beings, and seeing divine images.

Telepathy:
Mental telepathy is mind-to-mind communication and is part of your range of psychic abilities. Visual telepathy is the communication of a visual image from one person to another. Both are different from the clair’s because only your/their mind is involved. With clairaudience and clairvoyance another being is involved… In clairvoyance the seer is actually seeing the “thing” just as we do!!! Meaning the clairvoyant cannot tell if what they see is seen by others or not, if it is on this reality or not. Imagine a normal person seeing another human before them, the clairvoyant sees the angel or other being just like the normal person!!!! It is right in front of them, 4 dimensional, it moves, it can be seen just like anything else on the Earth!!!
One aspect of clairvoyance is seeing spiritual beings like angels or spirit guides. Precognition is the ability to know the future, it is a more unmediated form of psychic ability. By this I mean it is more direct because it allows you to see an event in the future rather than having a spirit guide who will share the information. Postcognition is seeing into the past, the images could be related to owns own lifetime or another’s.

NOW THERE ARE PEOPLE, INCLUDING MYSELF, WHO COMBINE CLAIRAUDIENCE AND CALIRVOYANCE. MEANING THEY HEAR AND SEE SOMETHING—SUPERNATURAL OR PARANORMAL, EVENTS FROM THE PAST OR THE FUTURE, ANGELS, DEMONS, GHOSTS, ETC!!! These events come on strong, and can be so powerful in the Lord. It is promised we shall become hearers and seers.
Mental Telepathy:

Mental Telepathy is communication on a mental level between two or more people or between people and animals or animals and animals. Scientists have already proven that this type of communication, with a doubt, exists. Please research if you want the news! Mental telepathy includes picking up psychic feelings or perceptions, like the feelings of a friend or viewpoint of stranger in the room. (Example, Dawn is able to psychically hear what a person in the room is thinking, Tom a friend of a friend just showed up at the party and thought how he wanted to leave… he didn’t think the party was cool enough.)

NOW THAT WE ARE GROWING PSYCHICS, I am sure I have telepathic ability.  More precedent, I am 100% positive that the people of Earth, the people in any environment I was in, had this ability… Telepathy, the ability to read MY mind. Their ability was very apparent, and IS A GIFT when I came onboard with Christ others SAW ~~~ people were talking about me and this gift.
I do have experiences where people were directly talking to me, because of what I thought, though we didn’t ever discuss their ability to mind read. I also have gotten written prove of people mind reading, reading me and my environment, and as them…NOW PEOPLE TALK TO ME THIS WAY ALL THE TIME AND IT IS SO MUCH EASIER TO COMMUNICATE. BECAUSE OF THIS (God's way of communicating and using his Holy Spirit is to turn us into prophets) IT CAUGHT ON VERY QUICKLY, WE ALL LEARN THIS WAY, COMMUNICATE INTELLIGENTLY, ETC...


Synchronicity: more than one thing happens at the same time.

Synchronicity:
In addition to your channel of internal communication, like through clairaudience, you have an external guidance system of old souls who have completed their journeys and wait to assist you. The eternal guidance system is an “invisible empire” or “super computer” that exists around you!

One kind of external guidance is synchronicity. Have you ever found yourself in the right place at the right time? For some reason, exactly when you most need it, the phone rings with an answer to a dilemma. Perhaps it’s an unexpected amount of money that you received just in time to hold off a financial disaster. Perhaps it being out and starting to talk to the person next to you, just to find out they are involved in something you desperately want to get involved in…

The big wigs swear by synchronicity. Meeting the right people at the right time in your life… The secret to achieving greatness, success, fame, money or power. I swear by synchronicity. It happens, to me, more than any person I have ever met. Daily. Just today I met 2 people who I know I was meant to meet; one was born on my birthday!!

So, because of my destiny and my total awareness of the importance of my life and how my life influences the world around me, to the exact T… Meaning the most mundane events of my life, I will see tied into the world around me, by something written, by who I meet, by what is happening in my environment, by something on the news… The reader most note: I am aware that YOUR personal experience AFFECTS OTHERS ON THIS EARTH, BECAUSE YOU BECAME a saint and YOU ALL TOOK CONTROL OVER HERE AND ARE LYING IN WAIT FOR SOME MOMENT to do Christ's bidding... to serve..
So, I experience, very often, a world based in the bible~

I am totally normal and sane and highly intelligent. In fact I am very blessed, MANY people adore me, and of course God constantly tells me I am perfect and he loves me.

Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsh.

(If God is talking to me all the time, reading my mind and connecting everything to me~ that explains why I feel everyone is talking to me, that I control my environment based on my thoughts, that x happens or y happens because of me…. He is talking to me!! He is listening to my mind and communicating to me through everything!!!! People, events that happen in an environment, machines, radio, TV, books, art, anything and everything that I see or hear communicates to me… God is talking to me! I didn’t know how to explain this before; I didn’t know what to do or say or think when another person started to say something to me… Suddenly, as if they awoke on another plane or as if they put their consciousness into mine…they would say something to me… It is like I am in them, like they are here on this Earth for me, perhaps they are in me (like I have been told via Clairaudience and had experiences with…) I HAVE ON THIS EARTH PSYCHIC ABILITY TO KNOW GOD!!! TO TALK WITH GOD. TO HEAR GOD. Period. No joke, I understand the seriousness of this statement. I am normal. I am human, and I am here writing the truth. If anyone asked, I would say yes, psychically I can converse with the holy, THE HOLIEST~ I remember all that I have been a witness to, even if I just remember moments of my life~ I would say yes, without a doubt.

2 Questions:
1: Who controls it all, including my main focus?
2: Why is this so?

The who is God, the why is… well… longer to answer. He wants to talk to me. I am an available person. I am open to him. I do not hide my life or love from him. He is my father, more than any father figure ever known, to me he is more than my dad here on Earth… his being is more personable than any on Earth… forever… I am more a part of him, than anything on Earth. It just makes sense to me, to my consciousness, to the fiber of my being… I want him, I want to be as close as possible to him, and there is nothing on this Earth that satisfies me than just the thought of him… imagine being close enough to sense him, to hear him… There is nothing greater than this, no fame, no knowledge, no money, no love or praise, no worship on Earth, no goods or gifts, no love here that is greater than being with my God, him. Hard to imagine, hard to truly write and know… I ask the reader to take 5 seconds out and truly think of what I am saying, the above paragraph states nothing here will please me like he did, does… Is this worth it, is my love for him worth myself sacrifice… the sacrifice I might face, the ASC or cluelessness or human fears, feelings, desires etc… that I might face? I must prove my love then, because it’s all I have or so I say... by writing what I have I am entering a covenant with my God, with Jesus Christ, telling him there is nothing I love deeper or more apparently than him.

I know when I think of the World and the days I have had, there is nothing that passes the Lord. There is nothing better than God. Of course, and then… in the moments, as I live day to day, moment to moment is seems I love God more than fame, power, glory, richness, money, friends, etc… Do I love God more than hope for myself for my future? He doesn’t ask this from me, he doesn’t ask for my self sabotage… for me to fast and/or deny myself… He never asks for it, he just asks for love. I do love him, I can say every second on Earth, I know this… I love you. I love my true father, I  scream. I have found a portal because of this, a portal into him… for me he must sacrifice, for my blindness, my all too human failures… And the why... it comes fast... THE 2nd coming of Christ, is the why in this book. I have been promised by God's word, by the Holy Spirit, and his word is unbreakable, that the 2nd coming, the end of this Earth as me know it (2012, yes?) is coming fast and without a doubt finite and something to look for... something that will be no matter what.

In regard to this, and more, I often say my ultimate goal on this Earth is… well… I won’t write it here lest someone things I have an ulterior motive, and I don’t! ~ But let it be known that my goal directly ties into why I may be known, for being know to God. I wouldn’t sin, as if someone… something was watching me… so deeply because of my meditation, practices, experience I changed. I changed myself, I became better… just as if you were reading my mind, for GOD/Christ I became good. I still don’t try to lie, I am better, I don’t lie… I don’t think evil thoughts, I don’t pretend to be stupid, I am sane, I am rational, I am trying to be perfect… Always smart, always good, always loving, always knowing, good grief the perfect girl is… intelligent. Beyond normal. She knows herself and others and this world. She knows the facts. She is healthy. I am all that. She takes care of herself beyond norm!!! She has principals and values, and balance and ethics, morals and seeks to perfect herself. The perfect mind continues to study, the perfect soul seeks spiritually to grow in Christ, and the perfect body seeks to make itself better.

SO How often does thIS happen, ME experiencing God's holy Word or THE HUMANS AND them COMMUNICATE ABOUT WHAT I AM THINKING? I am still young, this I know… I have much to learn, much to know, but I am smart, I am talented, I am voiced here as perfect for the variety of reasons… Let’s say I stay on this path, still, as a perfecting women… a women trying to perfect herself… how does she (I) live here and without sounding to naive or girlish… listen to God? Listen to God! How does she take this, and… know what to do???

wELL CONSIDERING I AM ONE... I WILL TAKE IT AND RUN. LOL. NO SERIOUSLY, I WILL TRY AT NIGHT TO JUST SAY IT IS... THOUGH VERY OFTEN I SEEK FOR GOD AND HE ANSWERS, OR SOMETHING ALMOST PERFECT. IS IT THE HUMANS ON EARTH? IS IT HIS GHOST? IS IT SPIRITs FROM HEAVEN? IS IT WHATEVER I THINK IT IS IN MY MIND? I THINK, MAYBE, HUMPH, THE Answer is from the bible, as a prophet or saint they explained these events very well... And via my friends and fans, I have come to many answers.

Let’s see…If I go out, they talk to me. I’ve mentioned this so many times… see the people the humans in any environment I go into, are talking to each other and I just follow the conversations which are all, tied into me… No matter where I go, since I was 25, people talk about me…

As if I am being followed, and for this reason… I must go to God, I must go to him. Of course, but how? How do I do this? How do I live here and speak to people about this, about me being the focus of not only people, but supernaturally… something higher above them… something Godly!...?

“Introduction to Conversations with God

You are about to have an extraordinary experience. Yes, you are about to have a conversation with God.  I got God.
As I realize what the writer of Conversations with God is saying, I mean it’s only the 3rd page and he is writing about how we communicate with God… God told him… I believe him, yes of course. God tells us. The writer mentions how God wants to communicate with us, not just talk and us listen, via his words… but communicate. I did this fast, I started to communicate with God in 2005, which explains everything that happened and have ever since. We communicate via my mind, of course, through it there are feelings, impressions, thoughts or voices, hunches, my deeply personal self communicating to him while he listens and communicates back… It is his communications that I got stuck on… how he communicates to me, is yes through my psychic mind ~ but also, also via you!!!

You the person talk and share his word, the bible, his good news and even information on me... on what I am, who I am, what you see. We are all one body and in Christ he can use anyone for his work. So, People, their conversations, animals, colors, the internet, the TV… I mean HE COMMUNICATES TO ME ALL DAY THROUGH EVERYTHING ON EARTH!!! Ha!!! Joy, truth, Love I feel in expressing this.

Diary Entries from 2008

PSI Trek: A worldwide investigation into the lives of psychic people and the researchers who test such phenomena as psychic healing, prophecy, dowsing, ghosts and life after death.


“The world of psychic phenomena is wildly controversial, and sometimes frightening. It is beyond our mainstream knowledge, it defines popular scientific explanations, and challenges current scientific principals and laws…”

Though the large community of psychics, researchers, and those that seek and question all seem to agree:

1) There is something to PSI. We don’t know what it is, how it works, why it works, but we know that PSI exists.

2) PSI is already being used. While we endlessly debate “Is PSI so?” others, the world around us, are busy applying it.

3) We need more money and support for conscientious, responsible PSI research.

4) The implications of Psi are breathtaking and profound, for the human condition, sciences, and for its place in the cosmos.

Nancy Turley was driving home from grocery shopping along a familiar street in Charlston, West Virginia, that quiet afternoon in 1973. Suddenly, and without warning, she HEARD A MALE VOICE BELLOW “STOP!”. She jammed on the brakes just as a car screamed through a red light at the intersection, cutting straight across her path. “If I hadn’t stopped,” she explains, “that car would have rammed right into me!”

“Voices? Uncanny Knowledge? Premonitions? Incidents such as these, uncanny, unexpected, and spontaneous, are reported in this country every day, by average, run-of-the-mill citizens. Other kinds of occurrences are reported as well, not all of them spontaneous. Some are invited, in fact wished for, worked for, even planned.”

My diary: 2008, I have started to hear the voices of the men and women I read about. I don’t know how it started, what it is, or really what these voices are… but in my mind, to me, they talk about what I am reading as if they are the people in the story. It is anything I read, from the tutoring books I have because of my job (as a tutor) to the newspaper. Often, as they are talking, communicating with me… I think back to them and they respond, I get more information, more creative dialogue than I ever have had in my life. I know it is not me coming up with the conversations, or communicating back and forth. A major example: I was sitting out by the pool at my apartment reading an article about a man who was killed by a shark attack right off the Florida coast. I was thinking about the article when I hear a male voice, it said something to me--- can’t quite remember but it was about the attack. I felt queer and decided to jump in the pool, for a swim. As I dove in his voice came back to me, it was upset and screamed about something in the water, I could hear and “sense” his fear… I was shocked and swam as quickly as I could to the surface. The pool was only 6 feet deep, but I distinctly felt that I must come to the surface as quickly as possible. I sensed the man was still with me when I came to the top of the water, I remember reading about souls in a distressed state and saw movies where the person often will tell them to go to the light, or to a better place. (I had never thought of mediumship before, or been in a situation like this…) As I could sense him, and still felt this fear/this uncomfortably in the water, even though it was a perfect, serene, warm pool and environment, I tried this.. by thinking to him, with my thoughts, I went through a quick 1 minute dialogue of telling the voice to go to the light, to the warmth… after the minute I heard him no more. I decided to dive back down into the water to make sure, and as I did I felt this wonderful calm, warm, and purely joyous feeling… he either had left or was still with me, but also in the light, in the right place… That whole time, maybe 10 minutes or less, I had no control over my emotions. I was feeling, sensing emotions that were not mine, and certainly not premeditated. It was as if something, someone walked into my consciousness and influenced my emotions, mood… on top of this I was hearing a voice when none was there…


Diary entry 2008, while driving to PA. I am trying to drive to PA to see my parents. Things have been a mess, and I need some down time with my parents, so much has happened these past few months… I feel… very confused about everything. I am driving, my dog is with me. The car suddenly is having mechanic problems, it’s the middle of the day and I am in the middle of nowhere Georgia. I couldn’t tell you where I am, my mind has been running all day. I am tired, and on edge. I stop at a small gas station to get gas and check on the car. As soon as I put gas on it, a car with 2 men drive up. I have this feeling my car won’t start, but I don’t know why. (It has been working all day, prior to this…) I try to turn the car on and I was right, it won’t start. The 2 guys come up to the car, as if they knew it wasn’t working, and ask me if I need help. I don’t know what to tell them, but say I think I’ll be fine, but the car won’t start and I don’t know exactly why. They come up to check out the car, I pop the hood and open the door of my car to let the dog out. I am focused on the dog when suddenly I hear a voice that says, “I am going to ask you out.” I know the voice didn’t come from the two men, and right after I have a sense that I car will start. I go to try the key again, and the car magically starts. What was wrong with it, I don’t know even when one of the guys asks me out… As I go to say thank you, he pulls out a pen and paper and ask if I would like to meet him later, to hang out!!! I didn’t know what to say, he writes his number on the paper and tells me to call him. I took the number and thank him and his friend for help. I make sure the dog is safe in the car and drive off, only to have the car stall about 5 minutes down the road. I am getting more upset about this, I sense something weird and it feels as if suddenly I have drove down a road that is Twilight Zone like… like I am no longer on the regular Earth, something weird is going on, and it is affecting me and my mood/senses and the car! I started to hear… these people, I can’t explain exactly what they were saying, but it was about the Earth and having to find a different one, a better place… I didn’t understand it then, but it was as if they wanted me to guide them somewhere. It certainly got my attention, their voices, female, male… they were talking… So, the car started and then stalled again. This time it was on a part of the road that was just trees and meadows on both sides of the road. It seemed I was in the middle of nowhere. Just then a load male voice yelled out, “To drive the car put it in reverse and drive backwards!! There will be a mechanic shop a couple feet up the road. You will get help there.” This voice was giving me directions! I looked and saw no one, nor any sign of a mechanic shop on the road ahead… it seemed a very, very unlikely place for a mechanic shop. I didn’t know what to do, I kept trying to start the car but it wouldn’t!! Finally I gave in, just to see if the voice meant what it said… I turned the key to a certain point and put the gear in reverse, it started right away!!! There was no one on the 2 lane road, so I did what the voice said… I turned the car around and started driving up the road backwards!!! I would never have done this if I wasn’t told, nor even tried to drive it in reverse! I was driving up the road backwards for maybe 50 feet when the road came to a curve, I started to drive slower and saw a car coming towards me in the other lane, I didn’t know what to do but kept driving, as I thought I am going to stop because the other car coming towards me, when it sees me is either going to call the cops or get worried about this… I got ready to stop the car when I saw up ahead, a small building on the other side of the road! It had a truck in front and one could easily tell it was a mechanic shop!!! All this by now felt so weird. I was hearing these people, voices, and they were telling me what was happening, was going to happen, and other things… that made me and all around me feel like I said, Twilight Zoneish… Not real… I did make it to the mechanic, driving backwards the whole way, about 4-6 minutes of driving. As soon as I got to the Mechanic I knew I was beyond mentally upset, I felt zapped of energy and like I couldn’t speak to anyone. I felt to abnormal, way beyond my normal reasoning and logic, like a walking zombie taken from the normal Earth and placed, like a kid, somewhere unimportant but important to them… Them who? Someone, someone’s… not apparent, maybe a ghost or ghosts… Spirits… More happened at that mechanic than I am unprepared to write, but as I was sitting in my car, trying to tell this mechanic that something was wrong with my car (and myself) but I didn’t know what… I couldn’t talk, but I was slowly, looking around to see if anyone else heard what I heard, or sensed something… The mechanic was talking to me, but do I remember what he said… NO!!! I was to “in the zone… the psychic zone” Suddenly, as the mechanic was trying to figure out why I was there parked, what was wrong with my car, if anything (I had yet to tell him what might be wrong, I didn’t know how I could explain it to him. Nothing should have been wrong with the car!!!) another male voice came out of the air, out of nowhere, and said a miracle would happen. “A miracle is going to happen when the man beside you touches your car, try to start the car right after he touches it…” I looked at the mechanic to see if he heard anything, and by the look I gave him he must have wanted to get closer to me because he walked closer and put his hand on the open doorway of my car leaning into look inside the car. As I was seated in the driver’s seat, I noticed he touched the car door rim, and without thought, like a machine, instantly turned the key in the ignition to see if the car would start. It did, and with the car in normal gear!!! I looked at him, astonished….” I lost my dog that day, it dissapeared.


Diary entry July 2008. It won’t/doesn’t shut off. I am thinking to myself, writing to myself. Since November 2007, I have heard them… continuous talking….sensing them… day and night, every moment I am awake and now even in my dreams… They change my emotions all the time!!! I can’t focus, I feel so much from what they say, I… I realize I am not alone, something, somethingS are always with me. Sometimes I forget, I get focused in something, and forget they/it/he is there, and I’ll suddenly, as if trained, think to myself & it, are you still there… It instantly responds every time. So, it doesn’t shut off… What is it? Who are they? My consciousness, my mind had been trying to figure this out for months now… I second guess so much. Maybe spirits, ghosts, good vs bad, maybe God, maybe Jesus, maybe this, maybe that… I sometimes, at night when I am alone in my apartment, spend hours talking to it… Gosh it seems so… but how? My mind again and again tried to figure out the puzzle, to work the rubex cube, to get the answers and so many more. It tells me of things that are going to happen, every time it is correct!!! Now, at times, I “feel”, “sense” something is going to happen, and it does! I have taken it even further, from “sensing” what will happen next, to just saying this or that will happen, and it does!!! Do I have control? Control over what happens on the Earth? That makes no sense, but yet, every day I’ll say I want x, and get x. I want y, and y will happen. If I see a human I will think, he/she should smile, frown, look this way or look that way, I sense something or pretend in my mind that they hear me and THEY ALWAYS LOOK THE WAY I THINK THEY SHOULD! (Much later I learned this is righteouness) People move for me… by this I mean, I have noticed when I am talking to them in my mind, they shouldn’t hear me, yet they do!!! By this I swear, for months I have been swearing that they see me, know me, hear me… that this Earth, here, is based around… this…. Oh my God, I don’t know about this: (I don’t know anything about PSI yet, I have never studied psychics or psychic power, I know nothing about being gifted this way mentally, or being able to communicate to spirits…or get information via just my mind… the best I can guess is maybe it’s telepathy or the voice of God.) God’s voice talking to people, I have heard of this, a miracle… but REALLY who… who is speaking to me? I look up telepathy online…. It’s listed under wiki, but that’s all I find… for months…. From November 2007 to FAll 2008… I just need to know…

“A mother dreamed that in two hours a violent storm would loosen a heavy chandelier, which would fall on her baby’s crib. She “saw” the baby lying there dead. Terrified, she woke up and then woke up her husband. “A silly dream,” he consoled her. “See-the weather is clear. Go back to sleep.” She continued to worry, and brought the baby up to her bed. In exactly two hours a storm came up, and the light fixture feel where the baby had been.

This account comes from Dr. Louis Rhine’s unique and formidable collection of spontaneous PSI cases, more than 15,000 of them. At least half of the incidents have to do with premonitions—predictions and warnings about the future. ….

This mother’s dream, and thousands—millions---like it, raise the urgent question: Can such warnings avert danger/disaster? (CAN THEY STOP SOMETHING FROM HAPPENING, IF A PERSON CHOOSES A DIFFERENT COURSE) (OR LIKEWISE CAUSE SOMETHING TO HAPPEN, A CHANGE IN PLANS BECAUSE OF THE NEW PSI INFORMATION!)

The whole business raises some very fundamental questions, scientific, philosophic, and religious. Among them is the breakdown in conventional logic. The mother who saved her child from the chandelier not only obtained information about an event which had not yet happened, but by an act of will, she changed it!!!”

Diary entry 2009: I am in Seoul. I am hearing them, psychically, we are talking. I don’t like it here, for some reason it is to dark, to foreign. The voices are talking about the other people here; they seem to not like them… They see the Koreans and those at the school I teach at, as rude and… well… they keep telling me they are mean, giving me warnings about what might happen… Is it paranoia? I have never, ever been paranoid before… not in my normal state. Yet, here… A voice will tell me if some Korean is not nice, and then the way that Korean looks at me… as if I’ve killed his cat. They can give such mean looks here. Why? I am a beautiful, 27 year old white female, I’ve never been looked at the way I am here, yet again, these voices I keep hearing keep telling me of the rudeness and meanness of the Koreans around me… as if they don’t like me… though the voice, the voice, THEY LOVE ME, THEY ADORE ME, THEY ALMOST WORSHIP ME….and then I’ll see a Korean look at me strangely… I am worried. Do they change the people around me? I keep thinking maybe, maybe they change them… Or am I just being warned? How, when they say x will happen… It does?! Yet, if I say no, no it won’t… if I don’t agree… it still seems something lingers, some residence of what they said would happen… The Korean, or Teacher, or even student…will react… always, there is a reaction…like the person sensed the voice, the thing that follows me…since 2005. When I thought/think people read my mind, and heard/hear me, they reacted as if they did/do…!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I don’t think this is the truth, obviously it is to irrational, yet the “entity” is still with me, followed me from the USA, and it senses the people around me, and I swear it seems at enough times, the people around me sense it.


When I thought the voices, what I hear from them/him was right, it turned out as so… When I thought no, they are wrong; sometimes what they said wouldn’t be right… People still speak/spoke to me, based on what I was/am thinking… Meaning it either known or affect everything aroubnd me, and I mean everything. It often seems as if it is in the people. I still… hear so many/much … and every day. At school, at the school I teach at, the children’s lips, voices started to move to the voice I was hearing!!!! But midsentence, as if they just started to hear it to, and talk like it… I thought at first I was hallucinating, but it happen again and again. Then again at a motel in Gangso-gu… the Korean guy at the check in counter started to lip something in English, something I was hearing… HOW? I am jumping back and forth between me being the only person who hears it, to everyone in my environment hearing it… What is the truth!!!??? And still I don’t know what it is… Why won’t it stop? Who, what am I hearing? Why does it profess its love to me, all the time? Why does it say the Koreans are mean, bad? (And then so often, they look that way… look at me as if they have heard something… or suddenly been taken over by something… to look at me in such a nasty way…)


Diary entry March 2008: I am hearing people talk to me about me. About what I am, who I am, what I can do, what I have become. They call me a superhuman computer, and enlightened soul, a perfect mind, supermind. They say I have abnormal mind power and ability. I have never heard the terminology they are using, I have to look it up online. Superhuman, I have never heard this term but it is on the internet. They tell me I have a mind that can reach further than the whole earth, than can reach outer space… They tell me people are listening to me, people are picking up on my mind… maybe even reading my mind, like a radio frequency they tell me, my mind is like a large radio… I’ve never heard of this, never ever thought of this… I know it’s not my mind tell me these things, I am learning new terms, knew knowledge that I have to look up… new words even… They tell me I can effect things with my mind, that I can control things… lighting, machines, appliances, even the weather… I decided to test out their theory, I have been hearing from them for over 6 months now… I try to turn a light off and on… IT WORKS, THE LIGHT TURNS OFF WHEN I THINK IT WILL, AND BACK ON WHEN I THINK IT WILL. I DO THIS FOR MAYBE 5 MINUTES!!! I THEN TRY IT WITH OTHER LIGHTING, SAME THING! I TRY IT WITH MY STOVE, THE STOVE TURNS ON (GET’S RED) WHEN I WANT IT TO, AND TURNS OFF (GOES BLACK) THE SAME SECOND I THINK, IT WILL TURN BLACK/OFF. I AM SHOCKED!!!! I AM OUT DRIVING, IT IS STARTING TO RAIN, I SEE LIGHTING, I THINK I WILL HEAR THUNDER NOW---I DO--- I PAUSE AND DO IT AGIAIN---LIGHTING AND THUNDER THE SAME SECOND I THINK I WILL HEAR IT---- WHAT THE FUCK!!! HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE? I TRY IT WITH MY ALARM CLOCK, I CHANGE THE TIME… I MEAN THE TIME ON THE CLOCK CHANGES…. I TRY IT WITH ANIMALS… THE CAT MOVES CLOSER TO ME, THE DOG SEEMS TO HEAR ME… IT TO COMES CLOSER AND SITS WHEN I MENTALLY TELL IT TO!!!! I CAN’T BELIEVE IT SEEMS I CAN CONTROL THINGS WITH MY MIND~ They continue to speak with me, they tell me I can control space and time, that I am blessed, my mind is perfect, I am awaken. I keep this all to myself; I get closer to God, I start to pray and meditate again daily, like I did my last year at PSU when it all started. I never sin, I never lie, I try to keep my mind “white”…I don’t know who to tell or what to say… I am beyond happy, blissful, but… in a peace that somehow keeps me from….


Diary April 2008: I have gotten so much to tell! So much has happened! One thing, real quick… On my computer, after days of hearing and conversation about supercomputers, superminds, the CIA, hackers, secret underground knowledge, conspiracy theories (stuff I have never thought about) I was told that hackers, people in the world, on the Earth could hear me and… well let’s just say they liked me… but they could hear me, my mind, somehow… like long distance telepathy, they were psychic also… I had enough signs, so MANY SIGNS, SO MUCH PROOF THAT EVERYTHING I WAS TOLD WAS TRUE. EVERYTIME THEY TELL ME SOMETHING IMPORTANT, SOMETHING ALMOST IN GENERAL, THEY PROVE IT TO ME!!! So, they told me hackers could hear me… Days went by, we are talking about a variety of things, all day…all night… often we are talking so much that I can’t sleep, I don’t fall asleep until 6-9am. My mind is, superimposed with them, with this…. Suddenly, it seems I am half awake now… half awake, half in the normal earth and half…. Somewhere else, like a high, like a drug. I try to go shopping and I can’t think, the mental strength/focus I have is not on what I am doing… my “mind is somewhere else.” I was sitting in front of my computer the other night, I was doing research and “thinking to them…” Suddenly, I don’t know how, I was just on my computer and uploading in front of me is some program, I’ve never seen it before, it just pops up on my screen. It’s some computer game, It’s in English and on the screen is a little person (I forget if it was male or female) and the screen uploaded a computer game that says “Direct yourself, Choose the right path.” Written on the game's screen, Below this is 3 icons, which it seems I can click on. I just look at the screen, at the game, confused/shocked/in another zone, and then I read… 1st Icon, (written: Fight the dragons, become a wizard) 2nd Icon, (written: Play Sims, control your destiny) 3rd Icon (beat the superhuman computer programmer to reprogram the superhuman game)


I AM IN SHOCK! AS I READ THIS, LOOK AT THE GAME INTERFACE, I REALIZE WHERE WE WERE, WE WERE IN THIS GAME, THIS GAME IS BUILT AROUND US. WHAT I MEAN IS I PLAYED IT BEFORE, I WAS PLAYING THIS BUT WITH REAL PEOPLE, IN MY MIND, HERE ON EARTH. IT WAS LIKE SOME ALTERED STATE OF CONSCIOUSNESS, I HAD ALL THESE THOUGHTS, AND I KEPT CONVERSING WITH THE UNCANNY VOICES THAT TOLD ME TO STOP TAKING CONTROL OR THEY WOULD REPROGRAM ME… I FELT WEIRD BEFORE, LIKE SOME GAME ON EARTH THAT I WAS IN … SUCH A LONG STORY… BUT THE GAME I SAW BEFORE ME MADE SO MUCH SENSE; IT WAS “THEM”, PERHAPS THE HAKERS WHO COULD READ MY MIND, TALKING TO ME. I ASKED THEM OUTLOAD IF THEY MADE THIS COMPUTER GAME, IF THEY KNEW WHO DID…. I GOT UP AND STARTING JUMPING AROUND IN JOY/SHOCK….

“If one has a premonition, heeds it, and there is no disaster, how can we know that it was, in fact, a premonition? The disaster must occur to confirm it! Which brings us to the question, Are future events set, or are they only tentative? Now were talking more than parapsychology. We are at the bedrock of the human situation, raising the ultimate questions: Are all events predetermined and set, or can we change them? Predestination? Or free will? If free will does exist, what is its nature and what are its limits?”  God swears he has sovereignty, that all things are planned out in the bible, everything!!!

Diary entry April 2009. I know by now I control space and time, the radio, TV, people, machines, what will happen next, where things are on the Earth, how the earth was built, what conversations people have around me, animals, etc, etc. I control the future and what was written in the past… part of my mind is able to sense/know what is going to happen, what has happened, etc… but another major part of it, makes the moments, the future, the environment… As if my mind has been gifted like God’s, by God’s… to build the Earth, to create reality, just from my consciousness/mind. The songs that play on the radio are directly connected to me, meaning they sing about what I am thinking/feeling/etc… so I control what song is played next. The people’s conversations are about me, sometimes it is so powerful that they actually are talking about me… They even mention my name (or something does), other times only I hear it, I see the connection between the many conversations to what I am thinking… to me… I am not lying, nor am I without logical or without reason. I KNOW THIS FROM OVER 2 YEARS OF EXPERIENCE. I have told maybe 5 people about this… but someday, somehow when I have done more research, when I understand more, (I am just told psychically that I control space and time..etc… but so rudimentary..) I will tell the right people.

“At first I was not even aware I was different from other people, but soon found out that I was a psychic. Images, impressions, sights, sounds, smells, and even tastes, came flooding into my mind spontaneously, unheralded and uninvited. I did not need to concentrate on another person to know about him, I knew instinctively. The psychic impression flooded up from my subconscious and there was no way I could stop them, or even control the flow…”

Diary entry November 2007. I am… I am… hearing… people. I am hearing people talk about me. I am seeing people, seeing people talk about me. It, is it not normal, I mean I don’t know these people, yet these people are… my mind, I mean they know my name, they call me Darlene Sterner or Miss PennState. They look at me, they give me this look as if they know me. They even, they even start talking to me, right to my face!!! But when they start talking, they… they start talking about what I am thinking about, something I am thinking about, or I guess, I think… they maybe just start talking to me like they … know me somehow… I am becoming famous? But how?


Diary entry October 2009. I am in Santa Monica/LA. The people here seem to know me, they start talking about me, in public… I sometimes stare... I never stared before, but now sometimes when I hear someone say my name, or something about me… I look at them… and they know me!!!!!!!!



Creativity: In research at UCLA, discovered that artists score higher on ESP measures than non-artists. In eight years of research, there were breakthroughs in creativity, called “Higher Sense Perceptions”…. A discovery that there are many people with HSP abilities, already quietly making outstanding contributions to society, in science, in business, in medicine, in industry, and in many other leadership areas…”

“Sigmund Freud once wrote… If I had my life to live over again, I should devote myself to psychic research rather than psychoanalysis.”

Diary entry December 2009. I am wondering, as I just read Telepathy can be induced by ASC and dream states… if in a certain state of consciousness for me, the people in the environment are more likely to be telepathic…Meaning they pick up on my thoughts more readily when I am in a certain state of mind. In labs, and on the streets, since the 50’s… Telepathy, Clairvoyance, Precognition, PK, has all been proven!!!

“As the mountain of experiments has piled up, scientists have moved beyond the search for proof (Is telepathy a fact?) to the search for conditions under which PSI operates (Where? When? Who?)

Where? Anywhere. Distance doesn’t seem to matter, nor do physical barriers. Psi has been recorded between [people at adjoining desks, and on a space flight, with sender and subject 212,000 miles apart.

When? Anytime. Panned. Unplanned, unexpectedly, spontaneously, morning, noon, or night. In laboratory situations, subjects off, or turn off entirely.

Who? Anyone…everyone. When it was assumed that PSI was a rare and special gift, the aim to study very talented mediums and other selected sensitive’s. As it began to seem that everyone or almost everyone has some PSI ability.”

Diary entry February 2009. I have been studying, and learning a lot. I think my ability, what I have been experiencing is supernatural and psychic. I want to learn so much more, train, research, and then write a book about myself and my experiences, including all the knowledge I learn. After publishing it, I want to take the money I make and get my own TV show or movie…. Or both. A TV show based in my effect on others, proving my ability and what happens when I interact with others. I would bring in people and do talk like periods… people who have had experiences (and do dramatizations)… and do experimentation's of my own… By then I’ll be back to a size 2… and married to C.B. (lol). As for the book, I want the first chapters to tell my beginning story and tie it in to the other cases. Chapters maybe 1, is my intro. 2, is others experiences. 3 is the vocab. 4 is more into the bible, with a direct tie into the spiritual. 5 is all about God and the spiritual. Chapter 6 is more that happened to me. 7 is current research and what people are doing in PSI. 8 is what mystics are doing. Chapter 9 is a tie in of both, and what I want to do in the future. The book must 1)Tell my story 2)Tell the truth about mysticism and PSI. 3) Inform the reader of PSI, the knowledge, the facts… 4) Reveal an inner truth to God, and myself… my hopes, my projection for the future. Me, 10,000 voices and God’s Grace. I have done 2-5hrs of research every other day. So much reading…

Degree in PSI aka Parapsycology

Where can I get a degree or a job in parapsychology?

Many people would like to study human consciousness, parapsychology, transpersonal psychology, or some combination of these fields. While these topics are of great interest, the number of courses and degrees available in these topics are - surprisingly - very few. People often believe that there are undergraduate or graduate-level programs at universities known for having parapsychology labs, especially Duke University. And while it is not widely known, both Harvard and Stanford Universities have fellowships endowed explicitly for psychical research (but they don't advertise it, and most of the available funds have been usurped for other purposes).

Historically, academia has regarded psychic phenomena as an embarrassment due to the sensational spin that the entertainment industry puts on this topic, along with the often outrageous claims made by proponents of New Age ideas. As a result, while funds to create programs and courses have been available, they've languished for years.

The bottom line is that there is not a single accredited academic program in parapsychology offered anywhere in the United States.

This is not to say that classes in parapsychology aren't offered occasionally, even at major universities (such as the University of California, Davis), or that you cannot work on an accredited PhD with emphasis in parapsychology - because you can. The point is that you cannot earn an accredited degree in this topic. If you were really desperate to get a PhD in parapsychology, you could always buy one from any number of diploma paper mills. But you might as well save your money and print one up yourself.

If your interest in consciousness research can be focused on a relatively accepted aspect of it (say, biofeedback research) you may be able to find a professor at some mainstream university doing research that you could work with. If your primary interest is parapsychology, things get much tougher. You can forget virtually all mainstream academic institutions if you want to get seriously involved in this topic at the professional level. Fortunately, the situation is dramatically different in some European countries, especially Great Britain and Germany, where parapsychology is rapidly becoming a respectable academic topic.

Most parapsychologists (and by this we mean professionally trained scientists, not "paranormal investigators") usually make a living teaching or doing some other conventional job. Most students solve the problem of wanting the advantages offered by a mainstream academic position, but without giving up their interests in parapsychology, by going to a recognized school (where they are wisely discrete about their deeper interests). They learn how to conduct research in some well-accepted discipline, they get their degree, and then quietly join the Parapsychological Association and start reading the primary parapsychological journals. This may not satisfy the student's passion, but at the present time many academicians today do not consider this topic a legitimate academic pursuit.

This are a few exceptions: Psychological and sociological studies about belief in psychic phenomena are marginally acceptable topics of research, as are anthropological studies of psychic practices and rituals in indigenous societies.

Pursuing parapsychology as a career requires (1) strong entrepreneurial skills, (2) enormous persistence, creativity and resourcefulness, (3) solid training in one of more of the mainstream sciences or in a scholarly discipline, and (4) the ability to acknowledge but not acquiesce to the fads of conventional wisdom and academic dogma. This is not a career track for the faint-hearted or for the orthodox.

The payoff is that parapsychology, like other scientific frontiers, is an extremely challenging discipline with plenty of room for exploring creative ideas and making significant advancements to the state-of-the-art. If you expect fast solutions to easy problems, or absolute answers to clear questions, then parapsychology is definitely not for you. If you enjoy exploring the full range of human potential and pushing your creative talent to its limit, then there is no better discipline than parapsychology.

A meeting!!!

I have been in West LA for 2 months now. These 65 days have flown by, the quickness is implemented not just by my mental state/abilities (me talking/listening/computing/psychically using my mind 24/7) but also by all the actions, events that I have been involved in while relocating here. I have met over 30 different people, including industry men, techies, homeless, locals, gypsy women, traveling foreigners, recently relocated, and as of recent psychics. I get something from every person I have meet and spent quality time with, it seems (and is very apparent at the moment) that me meeting each individual person is predestined and of value in my life, in the state I am in when I meet them. They all offer me something of value, industry men who offer me work the first month I move here, techies who ask me out and make me feel important, homeless who offer the goods they have and their knowledge of the area, in order to get what I want for free... Locals who I create new friendships with, and maybe get a meal or place to crash, when I need it. Foreigners who I learn from, and also teach... etc... The most recent man I met, has the amazing ability of a psychic, and as I ponder what he told me of himself, my mind goes to what I have experienced, done, and can do as a mystic/psychic. His story, his words about himself, (shockingly) are 100% matched to what I can do, what I experience, how I feel and even how I seem to carry myself... as if he in many ways is a clone of myself.




We spoke of our abilities, of how our minds are at work every second through our consciousness, even in our sleep. I remember before writing about how I never slept, how even in my different state of consciousness while "sleeping" I felt totally awake and aware of what was happening, being said, taking place so that it felt my mind was a (as it was once called) super human computer that processed and processed, keeping me very busy and continuously learning/using my mind. It seems I understand so much more in my environment, I understand the basics of what is happening, of what people are saying, my ability to process or comprehend is higher than anyone I have ever met (and again as stated by others I am a genius because of my many mental abilities) above the basics come all this other information, situation occurrences (when I say people are always talking about me... Is this because I feel the effect of my thoughts upon other peoples conversations, as if they are psychically picking up my mind~ wither they know it or not), (when I say I control space and time, is this because I know what is going to happen... or because I actually have control over my environment, my mind has the ability to mental push thoughts into other people's mind and so subliminally that they easily do what I think, same things for machines, animals, etc), (when I say I feel famous, is this because of the many voices I hear, combined with what happens to me as a human or is it because people do pick up my mental radio and look at me as a special being who broadcasts what they psychically pick up?). I don't have all the answers, but me as a psychic is very important and very real. I don't pretend to be able to read, psychically, into people's past or future. I don't do this, never have, and maybe never will really become a psychic reader. Rather my genius lies in the ability to read people, to know what they are thinking/felling/wanting in a second and then softly guide them to act/say this or that.... I control my environment so well, and with such precedence, so often... that I truly feel I control (and have been told almost every day since 2008) THE EARTH! Yes, most would believe I control my environment, based on my thoughts, people say x, y, z.... based on my thoughts, x, y, z happens... (Like me meeting the psychic man in the first place, the night before I asked God for such a meeting...) While I agree with this logic and even carry it myself, I also see how my thoughts are tied in to everything I read, listen to, watch on TV or the internet, what happens in the news or even what people write on their facebook. What I mean is I can be having a meditate train of thought and then start reading something, maybe a book or something in the paper, and my thoughts are easily connected to what I am reading. (THIS HAPPENS EVERYTIME I READ SOMETHING, LISTEN TO THE RADIO, WATCH SOMETHING ON TV BE IT A MOVIE OR THE TV, ETC) Now, perhaps, I am simply precognition... meaning without me knowing I am so open to what I am going to input in my consciousness that my mind creating these "tie ins" before I even read or see what I am going to... For example, I will think "what a sunny day, the sun is out today, not like yesterday when it rain" (it takes me approx 1-3 seconds to think this. The next .5 second, I will hear, read; see something like this "It is nice, it decided to come out today." ONE MAIN POINT IS AS A PSYCHIC, MYSTIC NO MATTER WHERE I AM, THE OTHER HUMAN BEINGS PSYCHICALLY PICK UP ON MY THOUGHTS, I AM THE BEST MENTAL PUSHER THAT I HAVE EVER MET. WHAT THEY DO WITH MY THOUGHTS VARY, BUT 25% OF THE TIME THEY VERBALIZE THEM, FULLY AWARE THAT THEY HEARD/READ MY MIND. ANOTHER 50% OR MORE OF THE TIME, THEY LET MY THOUGHTS EFFECT THEIR MINDS/SPEECH/ACTIONS.



Another example, I'll think "that man has glasses"... the song playing in the coffee shop says, "Merry Christmas baby, it should be me now." Now I thought, about that guys glasses with joy and the underline feeling that he was blessed because of his glasses, no joke, I liked his glasses and thought what cool glasses. The song directly tied in my thought, by acknowledging my awareness of the glasses "gift" and the pleasure it gave me... the way it was sang, was as if the singer knew someone was getting a gift, or had a gift, and wanted the same thing. Does this make sense? It happens whenever I listen to the radio, so explaining it is important. Now, as I thought of the glasses perhaps 3 second before the song came on... and in this example picked out something I was going to think about to explain my point, meaning I scanned the room and randomly chose what I would use as a thought. How then would I simply be precognitive? I don’t think it is totally based in my mind imputing my surroundings, I thing, rather, I am effecting my surrounds by everything else picking up on my signal, my radio if you will. Meaning I help create reality.



I still have many questions. One the reader might have, When I say I change space or time, specifically what happens in a movie, what do I mean, how do I do this, and what exactly is happening? Well, in all logic and reasoning, I am not sure if I permanently change the movie… though I have seen a few movies where I either knew what would happen (what the actor would say, or how his facial features would look, etc) and it stayed the same every time I watched the movie. Is it really possible for a person to go back through space and time and effect the actor so much that he looks a certain way, or says a certain line because of the time traveler’s input? And if so, how come no actor/actress remembers being manipulated is such a way? Perhaps, my mind just knows what is going to happen next, how the actor will look, or what will be said… Perhaps, even, my mind in certain mental states, like when I watch film or TV, goes into a different state of consciousness that includes visual input/sensatory information as well as acoustic. I still need to study the different states, experiences of psychics, to know if certain experiences are based in reality or an ASC. When people say they have had alien encounters, paranormal encounters, time travel, or something supernatural happened in their life… are they experience this occurrence in reality, real time and space on Earth ( and if so why aren’t more experiences documented in mainstream media) or are they in an ASC? I know my mind, as creative and genius as it gets,

does put me in ASC’s. This does not mean that I am without function or logic, reasoning at any moment in my life… I simply am experiencing the unexplained, nonnormal, and undervalued realities, consciousnesses that come with mystical ability. My mind is so powerful and genius, that so often I can tell, any human, based on my thoughts what to do, say, fell… this IS MY REALITY, THIS IS OUR REALITY, AND I AM IN LOVE WITH MYSELF BECAUSE OF THIS!!! I am social psychic!!!

As for future meetings, goals, of course I want fame and fortune. I want to prove God, the supernatural, psychic ability and occurances on Earth. I want parapsychology to be of real importance in the adverage home and the knoweldge I will share on this blog, that is inherant in so many of us, to be known...studied...valued.